The funny thing is, we never talked about children when we were dating/engaged that long almost year. We knew we wanted children,but that’s about it.
Our Engagement & Wedding revolved around the verse 1 Corinthians 13:4-8
Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends.
We sure didn’t really think we would be clinching onto this verse just shortly after our wedding. As I stated before we never talked about children or when they will come. I assumed they would come right after being married where my husband didn’t want them right away. It was a very tough time trying to understand each other and seeing how we will decide on when children will come. We were married September 2011 and in May of 2012 is when I first when to my obgyn.
I began noticing my menstrual cycle was off.. Well to tell you the truth I didn’t start paying attention to it until after getting married. We were married roughly 8 months. I had a strange menstrual cycle that lasted longer than normal, once explaining this to the Dr I mean nurse practitioner, She said that she wanted to do blood work and a transvaginal ultrasound. Yuck! Got it done though. A few days later..
The phone rang, It was the nurse practitioner, to tell me that they were diagnosing me with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome(PCOS).
The Storm began
What is that? How do I have that? Why? What does this mean? I don’t have most of the symptoms.
First it was to try Progesterone pills, that was a nightmare that lasted for a few months. I believe I tried metformin, which made me sick. In my blood work I had high levels of DHEA-S I believe, which caused me to have to go through ultrasounds of my kidneys/adrenal glands to make sure nothing was wrong! All Clear,Praise God! My husband was to have a semen analysis, which came out with him having low volume? Still unsure about that. So there was a time we wanted to stop and leave it alone. So we went with the other option..Birth control..
Tried that for 4 months. Three out of the four months ended in plain fail. Made my cycle way off track. So we decided to not do any medications. I believe we were married a year now,and actually finally discussed children. We decided if we were ever eventually up for really getting deep into this,that
- We want to try it as natural as possible
- We will do medications,but nothing that will cost us our savings
- We are open to fostering/adopting no matter what
We were married 1 year and 3 months when we considered moving here in Kansas. Just 3 months later we were in Kansas. Once we were settled here we were at it again. Randomly picked a doctor, that happened to be a Specialist. Our first visit was useless because I was battling with my old doctor to transfer my medical information. Once that was done we made a second visit. In the second visit, She looked over all my blood tests and any information that was there except my transvaginal ultrasound. She determined a few things
- My blood test were not done in the right time of my cycle
- Other tests weren’t done to confirm the diagnosis
- My husband was due to have another semen analysis and we had no idea
- By looking at my results of blood tests that even in that time frame that it was done in, Everything looked OKAY!
She requested that for me to do Ovulation tests and for my husband to do a semen analysis. Got him checked out again & everything is fine! So what was next? Do I need to keep seeing this doctor if everything is okay? Do I have PCOS or do I not have it? All these questions flooded. What I did was I began tracking my temperature and recording it using a BBT. It’s the natural way to see what is going on in your body.. So I have been doing that on and off the last year or so.. I discovered I do ovulate more then I think. That stress really affects my body and how things run.
So, Three years later after marriage, what are we doing?
We are waiting. We are praying, We are believing, and We are stronger then we were three years earlier. Infertility is a struggle,but it’s something you don’t do alone. God gave me Damian to help me through this and vise versa. We said I do in good times and in bad, sickness and in health. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 is very dear to us now then we ever thought it would be.
We know we will have children very soon. We are open to God’s Will. Following God’s Will is us laying down our plans and dreams for His plans and dreams for us. Whether it’s biological children or adopted, We will be Awesome parents! God is just preparing us, carving us, shaping us!
Until then we will spoil Simba and Nash!
Be Still Sunshine is on it’s way!